Answered Prayer 2020


Happy New Year!!!

As I prepare myself for Prayer and Fasting, I asked myself, “What do I believe God for this year?”. Truthfully, there are faith goals in mind, things that the Lord kept still for His perfect timing. YET one thing I knew my heart’s been yearning for this year 2020, “WHAT IS IT THAT YOU WANT FOR ME THIS YEAR, LORD?”. For almost 9 years of doing prayer and fasting, I never asked the Lord what HE wanted for me. Of course, faith goals are faith goals – trust me, I still have them written in my heart too believing for Him to fulfill. Yet as I grow deeper and deeper in my walk in Christ Jesus, I realized one thing – what He wants for me is what I also want. It could be hard at first, but remember when He said, “For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts – Isaiah 55:9.”. On the first night of P&F, the LORD answered my prayer right away. He whispered directly to my heart what He wanted for me this 2020. He said, “I know you wanted to serve, but the past few years had you traumatized to do so. I am offering you MY JUSTIFYING GRACE. Serve me in my house again. Don’t be scared anymore to serve. It’s okay, I understand, I know your heart. But tonight, since you are coming before me, I am putting upon you my garment of righteousness if you don’t have any & I want to clothe you with my joy so that your joy may be made full to overflow. So that once more, you can stand up again.”. What a revelation from the Lord.

But He didn’t stop right there. In the past few weeks, I had this desire to buy myself an AirPods as a gift. I asked closest friends, specifically my best friend Florence (since she had one already) if it’s worth to buy. Until I decided that I will purchase yesterday if I ever saw an APPLE store before attending the service. I walked past BHS to Victory Fort, my friend Carl challenged me to do so, I was on liquid fasting and heels with that long walk, LOL, going back, I never saw one. I met up with bestie for breaking of fast, and she told me I would do an unboxing. I was giddy. The first box I opened, it was a black AirPods cover. I laughed hard, knowing it was a sign that I should buy one. Little did I know, came the second box.

I am overwhelmed by the goodness of the Lord through my generous best friend. Lastly, as I took a photo for this cover page, in front of me lies this perfume, I thought to myself, the very first expensive perfume I bought, and I remembered the ALABASTER JAR of Mary, written on the book of Luke 7:36-50, when she poured her tears and the most expensive perfume on His feet. That is ME. I couldn’t help but worship at His feet, emptying myself before HIM for He is worthy to be praised. I wanted to share this story of #AMAZINGGRACE not to boast because I am nothing apart from HIM but to be an encouragement that there is A GOD who loves you, waiting for you with His arms wide open and wanting for you to receive the same GRACE He had offered me. GRACE is my LORD JESUS CHRIST. My hope and prayer for you this year is to let Him in. ❤️ #toGODbetheglory 





Is He a God of Breakthroughs?

And the answer is?

So what am I going to do in July? Check. Check. Check. I’m a planner, and I do things in order, I like to plan things, I even plan my outfit on a simple dinner. I kid you not, and I also prepare my emotions for a specific event. I know, crazy isn’t it? Nah, pretty sure you can relate to me. Ten years ago, I was the spontaneous woman happy go lucky human being who didn’t even care, but now when I look in the mirror, I see a different one. Continue reading “Is He a God of Breakthroughs?”

Where Do You Find Peace?

Hey everyone! It has been a long while since the last time I pour my heart into writing… I keep falling and falling into the hole of darkness not wanting to be found. Yet I believe God wants me to share this in the light, so here I am giving you a big puzzle of my life’s uncertainties and sharing my brokenness to the world.

Perhaps we share the same sentiments, and this is all the more reason I want to write this blog.

For the past three years, I gave all my time and money in traveling. I was so hyped in going to places and thought it was something good for my soul. Well, indeed it was. But it never gave me the satisfaction I’ve been longing for. Also, I found myself not wanting to mingle with anyone anymore. Terribly aloof… I lost faith in humanity, I lost faith in people because most of them take away everything you have even your sanity.

I was always a people person, I love talking to everyone, I love giving advice and sometimes I just love being surrounded by friends. I was once the jolly and cheerful lady that you can always count on to… I offer my loyalty, and that’s the thing – not everyone offers the same back. There were days when some so-called friends would confide, and you’re all ears until they let you absorb their pessimism. And you’ll find yourself being drowned to their emotions because of one thing – you cared too much. Until such time, you’d never hear from them again, and you’ll just see on their feeds of how well they were doing in contrast to what they confided to you. Oh for the love of social media, right? The list goes on and on…

My heart started to feel numb and overused if it’s even the right word to describe it. I wallowed through the fact of what’s wrong with me. Days became months of being anti-social… Months became a year of fear and insecurities. Until last month, I met up with an excellent friend of mine who is also my mentor from my previous church. Somehow the Lord knew it’s time… It’s time for me to see the bigger picture of what He is doing in my life. My mentor bought me a book called “Healing for Damaged Emotions by David A. Seamands.” As I flipped through the pages (I’m halfway to finishing it now), I see myself tearing up and realizing what I needed most in my life.

The book aside from the Bible, helped me to see the pain of my past even in my younger years. Did you know that your past scar is very much related to how you deal with your scar today? I didn’t know ’til now. Also, I realized ever since I was little I was so drawn to wanting the attention of everyone especially my parents. Yep, I went through again to the pages of my diary when I was in 6th grade until college.

We read, we hear, we believe a good theology of grace. But that’s not the way we live. We believe grace in our heads but not in our gut level feelings or in our relationships. There’s no other word we throw around more piously. The good news of the Gospel of grace has not penetrated the level of our emotions. David Semands

It was a sad and funny moment at the same time when I read from cover to cover what I wrote back in grade school. I had hundreds of crush way back specifically Nick Carter of the BSB. Yet I also saw myself hating my parents and wanting to be with my friends instead. I even wrote a lot about wanting to kill myself. Yep, imagine how broken I already was. I don’t even know where I learned the term “suicide.” I guess this is the first step of healing, learning to know where it all started. And how I felt back then made a significant scar in my heart that hasn’t been truly healed today. I didn’t yield that part to the LORD when I became a Christian 10 years ago. So every time I get hurt by someone I only learned how to bury them alive without really dealing with the scar and wanting to be healed. I just let it go and yeah I forgive you. If you’ve met some of my friends whom I’ve had tough moments with they’d tell you right away, “Oh, Kat just shut me off without telling me why.”; “She became cold for no reason.” Yep, that has become me and if you’re one of them reading this – I’m really sorry about it.

I recognized that I haven’t been trusting GOD at all. Instead of putting my faith in Him, I’ve put my faith in the world that is why I kept drowning in the seas of insecurities, selfishness and low self-esteem. The mere fact that I let people’s pessimism in my head goes to show that I placed my faith in the world’s view instead of GOD’s view. As pastor Patrick of Victory Fort said from the last preaching “The world has a basin of opinions and people are also sensitive.” There are thousands especially the world is growing in technology, everyone seems to be entitled to have their opinion and it could hurt everyone and could betray as well… Thus, at the end of each day, to whose opinion will you believe?

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Sharing you a photo by Jack Dawson. Look closer in the middle, and you could see the bird who found a hiding place in a rock… Showing you this is the picture of what perfect peace is.

I lived each day in fear of what will happen for the next few hours of my life, will I fail? Will I be hated? What will happen to me when everyone I loved leaves? How will I cope when everything went down to drain and so on and on… These are the constant noise in my life that seemingly unstoppable as I grow older, but one day I just couldn’t take it anymore, so I cried before the LORD and told Him, “Ayoko na, GOD. Pagod na ako.” You know what He said… “I will heal you, my daughter.”

Healing by GOD for my damaged emotions is what I needed most in my season now.

Nevertheless, the time will come when I will heal Jerusalem’s wounds and give it prosperity and true peace. I will restore the fortunes of Judah and Israel and rebuild their towns. I will cleanse them of their sins against me and forgive all their sins of rebellion. Then this city will bring me joy, glory, and honor before all the nations of the earth. The people of the world will see all the good I do for my people, and they will tremble with awe at the peace and prosperity I provide for them. Jeremiah 33:6-9

I know in my heart that the process of real healing in Christ will be very tough. It’ll be heartwrenching, yet I know it’s nothing compared to the fact that Christ Jesus will be with me in the toughest moment and that my friend, gives me real peace.

I was hesitant to share what is going through my mind, a few of you could see this as something blunt, a few could criticize me. Except I know in my heart a lot of people are going through the same emotions as I am and it could be you, so all I can say is “The Lord will fight for you as He is fighting for me too. Will you let Him?” 

Oh how I miss writing so bad, why did I ever stopped? Tee-hee. Until next time! I’d also like this to be a platform to minister to those who are also hurting and wanting to be healed by the only Savior of this world, I’m a message away. Let’s talk and pray at the same time.

God bless you, my dear readers.

Chasing the Sunrise: A Cebu Getaway

All my life I always thought sunset is the most beautiful thing in the world because it’s melodramatic and convenient, by convenient meaning you don’t have to wake up early. But I was wrong. [Travel vlog is at the end of this post]

So why travel to Cebu? 14 years ago, my mother deported me to Lapu-Lapu City a day after my father was buried. I was shocked and didn’t had the time to weep for him. Two Continue reading “Chasing the Sunrise: A Cebu Getaway”