Her Captivating Fate

It’s yet another year for me and this time I can’t believe I’m out of 20’s.

So, how does it feel? Nothing. Haha =) Just so you know 30’s the new 20 which is quite true nowadays.

As I revisit my previous birthday blog, I can feel the excitement of celebrating my last season of the 20’s, so in tuned to focus on Him and very expectant of His blessings to be poured upon me. I was so assured of His greatness in my life yet I still fail to recognize HIS Sovereignty when adversities came.

Fast forward to the week before my birthday this year, I LOST A BATTLE. What battle? My focus, His will – the purpose in my life. I was so distracted on a certain area of my life on which practically messed up the very existence of what He has for me. I took matters into my own hands without consulting HIM. My dear friends, I was on the brink of falling in the pit. I spent all my precious time on a relationship that I lost my quality time with Jesus Christ.

Exodus 20:3 “You must not have any other god but me” – Today we can allow many things to become god to us. Money, fame, work, or pleasure can become gods when we concentrate too much on them for personal identity, meaning and security. No one sets out with the intention of worshiping these things. But by the amount of time we devote to them, they can grow into gods that ultimately control our thoughts and energies.

Sadly, I had. I was trying to fill someone’s happiness while I was the one getting tired, weary and I was in a roller coaster emotion because I didn’t guard my heart. I kept asking God what is happening to me? Yet He keeps telling me to be STILL, Be PATIENT and TIMING. But I felt like I was running out of time and so I relied on my strength alone. Care to trust me what happened? I became stressed and insecure because I was aggravating so hard to get the attention and affection of the man I’m always with. Don’t get me wrong, I was happy. Until the week of my birthday, something opened my eyes. Thank God for spiritual family to remind of God’s faithfulness, thank God for best girlfriends who can hear your cries, thank God for my family to tell me how I should be treated and thank GOD for His unending love… Little by little, He orchestrated things in the way it should be. He opened the door for me to get hurt, disappointed and felt like being used so He can heal me wholly.

This morning I heard God’s voice – EXODUS 20. The 10 Commandments. At first, I was like okay God, what about it? Until my quiet time lead me to the verse I shared a while ago. That’s what God has been telling me to shift my focus back to the ONE who deserves my time. I repented and asked forgiveness because like a father to his daughter He disciplines us in order for us to go back to Him, to grow maturely and look beyond the situation. The hardest part is character molding, where God shows you the things you needed to change, to accept and to humble oneself before HIM. The main purpose of my life — To be used by God for His greater glory. That’s why I want to share to you my life because I want you to be reminded that life is never perfect especially being a Christian, we will always fall short of His glory yet beneath that let us always be reminded of what Christ Jesus has done for us on the cross. We’re already victorious because of HIM.

“Remain in me, and I will remain in you. For a branch cannot produce fruit if it is severed from the vine, and you cannot be fruitful unless you remain in me. – John 15:4”

Going back to being 30. I’d say life is fabulous as long as you know who you are in Christ (–trust me on this one.). By the way, I celebrated my birthday at McDonald’s Kiddie Party with great friends. I will continue to rejoice in HIM, a woman with a childlike faith.

Gorgeous “PIGLETS” cake by Sugarbox.

Elementary Barkada – HS Barkada – Spiritual Family plus I seriously want to celebrate with my barkada’s little kiddos!

Not only that, I was able to celebrate it with my family like a kid too. Although sad to say, my baby is not with us. My first birthday without my baby sister. Anyhoo, my family surprised me with a little singing from the restaurant on which I never did expect.

Missing the love of my life, my baby girl shobe Caroline

My brother Mark says “Huwag na kantahan yan, wala ng tao eh!” And all of a sudden they’re kind of laughing and I heard people singing in the background. I was really surprised!

There comes a point in time where distance seems a big hindrance to a relationship and gladly I was able to catch up with my college bff. I’m very much happy to be reconciled with her, the funny girl I knew back then… I believe true friendship has to go through a lot of mishaps in able to make it stronger. =)

With Kath at Cafe Adriatico surprising me again ❤

To believe in God’s promises is to have faith, abide and wait. I know that I keep telling people that in His perfect timing He will be the ONE to lay down the desire of my heart. I believe that this is the YEAR of the LORD’s FAVOR. Why? Because He said so! I trust HIM. What I love most about this season is the wonderful ending on my birthday and a new beginning right after it. Letting go of what needs to go and embracing the blessings and favors that are right in front of you.

Before I end this, I would like to mention two of the most wonderful people in my life “the piglets” who made my birthday an extra ordinary one. I will certainly never forget that being 30 is remarkable!

Meet Kriscia and Florence ❤️